By Jemima Pereira (
Fic series: Stargate by Drabbles
© August 2003
Rating: G
Season: season 2
Series: Stargate SG-1

A drabble coda to "In the Line of Duty."

No dough, no foul.

Thanks to Jerie for making it possible.

The quote is from "The Higher Pantheism" by Alfred, Lord Tennyson.

When you're in mourning for a Goa'uld, your friends look at you strangely. They wait for it to wear off - they whisper of recovery and reabsorption, not bereavement or separation.

Looking back, you're amazed that Skaara could rebel against so complete and pervasive a union. "Closer is He than breathing," someone once said, and religious symbolism that was abstract before is quite literal now. You became something bigger than Captain Carter - a perfect union, fearful in wrath yet infinite in love. For a little while, you were Jolinar of Malkshur.

When you're in mourning for yourself, your friends don't understand.